Dear readers, it has been many months since my last confession.
I have a problem with lighting Shabbat candles in the winter.
There, I’ve said it.
Ahhh…. Feels like a weight lifted.
No really, it disturbs me that I just can’t seem to make it happen on a wintery Shabbat evening. I’ve rushed home from work and am franctically getting ready. The minutes tick away as I run around switching lights and then all of a sudden – its candle lighting time! I jump in the shower, determined to be out and ready in 18 minutes, and even when I am I’m just not in the mood to light after the hustle to get there.
I have to be calm and ready to embrace the holy rest in order to light. If I am not in the right mood as I light, the flames don’t give me the same loving sensation.
So, am I alone here? Do others of you have a hard time setting the stage these cold early Shabbatot?